I am doing so much better without my Gex. It’s amazing what happens when you don’t have someone putting you down so much.
But my anxiety comes in massive waves on trusting people.
I hate dating. The beginning is great and then my anxiety kicks in. What ifs are a massive in my mind. What if I am not what he wants? What if he is playing me? What if… what if… what if….
I hate the fact I am terrified of being played the fool. I was for 8 years and now I expect everyone to do this.